hmm. i'm having mixed feelings right now. i'm damn happy yet i'm not happy about myself. My parents got a me laptop for my birthday!!! OMG LA! damn happy. but i'm not happy with myself. despite this kinda trust from my parents. i cant myself. i'm not studsy nor doing things i'm supposed to do. hais. i'm really scared that i'll disappoint them. dpa is a chore. but its worth it. sian. mixed feelings >